So I guess all it takes is time. This extra day to reflect and think has helped immensely (that and leaving a novel in a friends google talk. thanks, ps...) NOW I think I feel better. There are a couple things here and there that are still getting to me, but definitely feeling back to normal.
Luckily, I'm pretty sure I have some of the most understanding friends to ever exist...so that definitely helps.
Just random note, if you're a friend of mine and want to know how to help...all you really have to do is remember me. I benefit greatly from simple talking ad hanging out, or just being involved. It's the loneliness that kills me...that and lying, but I don't really run into that too often.
Anyway, that's all I've got for now. Nice happy feel good posts coming soon!
Peace,
Chris
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
"Today will probably be better than yesterday."
So that's the fortune cookie I got with my food today. I suppose that should be the first indication that I'm doing better. Haha. Fortune cookies have to be right, right? :)
Anyway, today was the first day in a while that I was able to come home and relax. Without Frontiers, life is much more easy going! I'm still easing into the friends thing but I'm wicked close :)
Jin is leaving the bookstore on Friday, so it's guna get hectic there. It'll be handlable, just very annoying I think. But I GUESS that if she found a better job, that's fine ;)
That's all for now. More later!
Peace,
Chris
Anyway, today was the first day in a while that I was able to come home and relax. Without Frontiers, life is much more easy going! I'm still easing into the friends thing but I'm wicked close :)
Jin is leaving the bookstore on Friday, so it's guna get hectic there. It'll be handlable, just very annoying I think. But I GUESS that if she found a better job, that's fine ;)
That's all for now. More later!
Peace,
Chris
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Upswing?
So, I think I may be on an upswing, after a holy hell of a night last night followed by the worst weekend on record. I'm pretty sure that that was the single worst crash I've ever experienced. I was physically ill at times because of it, and I really went all out on the trying to get people to help.
It was crazy...
I don't know why I think I'm on an upswing...I still feel absolutely horrible...but less paranoid...I guess that's good!
We'll see what the week brings...
Peace,
Chris
It was crazy...
I don't know why I think I'm on an upswing...I still feel absolutely horrible...but less paranoid...I guess that's good!
We'll see what the week brings...
Peace,
Chris
Saturday, July 21, 2007
wtf?
There were 2 parties last night....a bunch of my friends were invited to one....another bunch to another...I was invited to neither, and was left alone....not cool :(
Thursday, July 19, 2007
What friendship means to me...
I'm at a very odd point in my life...
Very recently was a one year anniversary of being comfortable with my friends and friendship in general. It only took 4 years, but hey I try :P Something very important I finally came to realize is that your REAL friends...you just know are your real friends. I have 3 close friends I can name...just 3. That's all I need. (Those who are offended, please note that I have a vast array of good friends, and you're probably in it if you're reading this :P). These friends are people I've probably alienated in the past...but kept coming back to me because they cared.
Here's the dilemma...coming away from a depressive state has it's drawbacks. Though I no longer get depressed, I can "crash". A crash is a sudden and fast (about a week or so, sometimes only one night) change in mood from happy to depressed. It's unhealthy and dangerous. A crash can be triggered easily by a thought of a depressing thing, or moment, or someone saying something that my mind isn't trained to interpret as innocuous (including "we're not friends anymore"), etc., etc. Unforutnately, a recent string of events have lead me to crash
for the past week. I've already accused a few people of not being my friend, and have already tried to reaffirm my friendship with multiple people.
This is bad...
So, how do we fix this? Well, first off I need to teach myself a lesson. As much as it hurts me to sit back and do nothing, it's just what I have to do. There are some of you that already know who triggers my crashes and possibly who triggered this one. For those that don't it doesn't matter, as my life will be free of this person in about a month.
I think it is very important to note that it will be an actual turning point in my life, and you will see a marked change in my personality on the fabled day. Bring beer...
Anyway, I guess that's all for now.
Peace,
Chris
Very recently was a one year anniversary of being comfortable with my friends and friendship in general. It only took 4 years, but hey I try :P Something very important I finally came to realize is that your REAL friends...you just know are your real friends. I have 3 close friends I can name...just 3. That's all I need. (Those who are offended, please note that I have a vast array of good friends, and you're probably in it if you're reading this :P). These friends are people I've probably alienated in the past...but kept coming back to me because they cared.
Here's the dilemma...coming away from a depressive state has it's drawbacks. Though I no longer get depressed, I can "crash". A crash is a sudden and fast (about a week or so, sometimes only one night) change in mood from happy to depressed. It's unhealthy and dangerous. A crash can be triggered easily by a thought of a depressing thing, or moment, or someone saying something that my mind isn't trained to interpret as innocuous (including "we're not friends anymore"), etc., etc. Unforutnately, a recent string of events have lead me to crash
for the past week. I've already accused a few people of not being my friend, and have already tried to reaffirm my friendship with multiple people.
This is bad...
So, how do we fix this? Well, first off I need to teach myself a lesson. As much as it hurts me to sit back and do nothing, it's just what I have to do. There are some of you that already know who triggers my crashes and possibly who triggered this one. For those that don't it doesn't matter, as my life will be free of this person in about a month.
I think it is very important to note that it will be an actual turning point in my life, and you will see a marked change in my personality on the fabled day. Bring beer...
Anyway, I guess that's all for now.
Peace,
Chris
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
United Airlines v. Lufthansa, jaaaa....
So, let's go over a brief history of my international flying experiences and see if we can find a trend. Now please, don't get me wrong, I've NEVER had a problem with the FLIGHT...but let's take a look at the payment problems really quick...
1. Continental Airlines: We tried to use Continental to buy tickets to Frankfurt, Germany this past March. Unfortunately, their inability to comprehend the fact that they had put a hold on my card made them unable to charge me for the tickets. I swore at them and demanded a refund.
2. Icelandair: This is the airline we eventually actually bought the tickets from. Good idea, since it was a great trip. However, the taxes and fees for the trip were attached AFTER the trip, and I was overdrawn by $100.
3. Lufthansa: This airline was magnificent. One of the best plane trips I've ever taken. Too bad they made me pay through United Airlines.
4. United Airlines: Damen und Herren, this has to be the worst coincidence ever...my rent check was cashed on the SAME DAY that United decided to double charge me. I am currently overdrawn by $800. $800!!!!
There is only one good thing about this...an amusing set of phone calls that followed:
10:03 a.m., Call from United Airlines, Houston, TX...
Good morning, Mr. St. Pierre? Hi this is Cheryl calling from United Airlines to inform you that we are attempting to charge your card for your airline tickets to Paris, France and it seems to me it's being declined. If you could give me a call back that'd be greeeeat!
10:15 a.m., Call from United Airlines, Houston, TX...
Good morning again, Mr. St. Pierre. I would just like to let you know that it seems we may have double charged you for this trip. If you could please give us a call back so we can discuss this that'd be great!!
10:37 a.m., Call from Lufthansa, Frankfurt, DE...
Guten tag, this is Morgan from Lufthansa Air calling to let you know that we have discussed the matter with United Airlines and have taken care of the trip costs for you. You should see a reversal as soon as it makes it through our system. Thank you for flying Lufthansa!!
....I love international airlines :P
1. Continental Airlines: We tried to use Continental to buy tickets to Frankfurt, Germany this past March. Unfortunately, their inability to comprehend the fact that they had put a hold on my card made them unable to charge me for the tickets. I swore at them and demanded a refund.
2. Icelandair: This is the airline we eventually actually bought the tickets from. Good idea, since it was a great trip. However, the taxes and fees for the trip were attached AFTER the trip, and I was overdrawn by $100.
3. Lufthansa: This airline was magnificent. One of the best plane trips I've ever taken. Too bad they made me pay through United Airlines.
4. United Airlines: Damen und Herren, this has to be the worst coincidence ever...my rent check was cashed on the SAME DAY that United decided to double charge me. I am currently overdrawn by $800. $800!!!!
There is only one good thing about this...an amusing set of phone calls that followed:
10:03 a.m., Call from United Airlines, Houston, TX...
Good morning, Mr. St. Pierre? Hi this is Cheryl calling from United Airlines to inform you that we are attempting to charge your card for your airline tickets to Paris, France and it seems to me it's being declined. If you could give me a call back that'd be greeeeat!
10:15 a.m., Call from United Airlines, Houston, TX...
Good morning again, Mr. St. Pierre. I would just like to let you know that it seems we may have double charged you for this trip. If you could please give us a call back so we can discuss this that'd be great!!
10:37 a.m., Call from Lufthansa, Frankfurt, DE...
Guten tag, this is Morgan from Lufthansa Air calling to let you know that we have discussed the matter with United Airlines and have taken care of the trip costs for you. You should see a reversal as soon as it makes it through our system. Thank you for flying Lufthansa!!
....I love international airlines :P
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
First post!
So why a blog? Why not livejournal? I've always felt that blogs belong to the person...and aren't as much a journal as a sounding board. I always thought it was odd to have a "Live" Journal...especially when I hear about people who get angry because they being commented on, when they have the posts open and commentable...so this works better for me.
I suppose I'll start just by throwing a note about my time at WPI, what I've learned and such...
Yes...I've been here for 5 years (going on 6)
Yes...I have to overload 5 classes per term, then go to Africa in D term
Yes...It's going to be very hard
No...I'm not quitting my job or SocComm, or other clubs to make the time
Yes...I understand some of you may feel that's a bad idea
No...I don't really care
and No...I do not regret my decision...
My first 4 years at WPI were nothing like ever before. People are right, college is a life changing experience, and on top of that, college only happens once and they are some of your best years. I did not stay at WPI for an extra 2 years because I couldn't let go. I also didn't stay because I felt I had a grudge against anyone or anything at the school I had to resolve.
The reason I stayed at WPI is because the first 4 years there, I was nobody. I was shy, annoyed, frustrated, going with the flow and wicked easy to manipulate. I didn't think my friends were friends, and sometimes they turned out not to be. In the past year (and hopefully this coming year), the changes I've made have panned out and will pan out to actually be life changing, and possibly send me in the direction I wish to go. I've made a difference in the places I've always wanted to...my career choices are now in a place I'd like...my friends are my friends, my good friends are my good friends, my few close friends I no longer think will leave me, and those who have pretended to be my friends are gone. The people, things, places, experiences, and everything else that I will enjoy are now achieved or in progress...and THAT is what makes this entire WPI expereince finally worth while.
Chris
PS - I'll be starting a second blog soon that outlines my life at WPI and how I've changed. Also, if you wish to view the abridged version, go to http://users.wpi.edu/~stpierre/mylife.htm
I suppose I'll start just by throwing a note about my time at WPI, what I've learned and such...
Yes...I've been here for 5 years (going on 6)
Yes...I have to overload 5 classes per term, then go to Africa in D term
Yes...It's going to be very hard
No...I'm not quitting my job or SocComm, or other clubs to make the time
Yes...I understand some of you may feel that's a bad idea
No...I don't really care
and No...I do not regret my decision...
My first 4 years at WPI were nothing like ever before. People are right, college is a life changing experience, and on top of that, college only happens once and they are some of your best years. I did not stay at WPI for an extra 2 years because I couldn't let go. I also didn't stay because I felt I had a grudge against anyone or anything at the school I had to resolve.
The reason I stayed at WPI is because the first 4 years there, I was nobody. I was shy, annoyed, frustrated, going with the flow and wicked easy to manipulate. I didn't think my friends were friends, and sometimes they turned out not to be. In the past year (and hopefully this coming year), the changes I've made have panned out and will pan out to actually be life changing, and possibly send me in the direction I wish to go. I've made a difference in the places I've always wanted to...my career choices are now in a place I'd like...my friends are my friends, my good friends are my good friends, my few close friends I no longer think will leave me, and those who have pretended to be my friends are gone. The people, things, places, experiences, and everything else that I will enjoy are now achieved or in progress...and THAT is what makes this entire WPI expereince finally worth while.
Chris
PS - I'll be starting a second blog soon that outlines my life at WPI and how I've changed. Also, if you wish to view the abridged version, go to http://users.wpi.edu/~stpierre/mylife.htm
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